Long but needed!

Just logged in for the first time in a long time!
I haven't read or looked at any messages or comments yet, just wanted to write a journal to let y'all know I'm here-

Without going into detail, my depression resurfaced worse than ever and I have sought help in therapy for this reason. I had been embarrased to seek help from therapists previously.

Anywho!-
COMMISSIONS- One of the therapists I met with suggested that the reason my depression has been spiking is because I had lost my most precious weapon against it- art. Not just any art, but the personal art that comes from my soul, my creations, my ideas. Her theory was that doing too much commission work and not enough personal work (10 to 1 ratio) was actually harming me, crazy right? Well she convinced me to try out her suggestion to see if I have any improvement- so I am!

So heres whats happening with that-
All of my commissioners that have already paid fully or partially for their commissions will have their commissions finished! Unless of course they want a refund- therefor I will give you one! All other commissions I must drop- I apologize for this greatly and hope you are all understanding. I did not want to do this but at the request of a professional I am seeking help from she deems it necessary. Many of my commissioners are dear friends and I am sorry to disappoint you like this!

I just hope you'll all be understanding, as this is very hard for me to say. Im trying to correct my mistakes and be responsible- mistakes caused by my 'illness' that I am trying very hard to overcome!

TRADES! I will be completing ALL of my trades! Many of you have already finished your beautiful halves of trades and I will give you the best I can give in return. I only hope you can continue to be patient with me friends-

CONTEST-
I will be happy to hand out prizes now, without the burden of commissions I will have time to do this and more contests in the future with the free time I will have- QUESTION- Would you all like me to pick winners myself or would you still like to vote?


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Im not sure what else to mention right now- besides I am getting better! And without the burden of so many commissions I can start my road to 'healing artwork' like my therapist had suggested. I really hope this all works out because I want to feel better!


Ill be back as soon as I can to start getting in touch with people individually- thank you! -Mary